Eye opening

I've spent the majority of my life not understanding why I feel this way, why my life is always falling apart, why I am always self sabotaging. I was "diagnosed" with BPD in 2015 after an attempt and hospitalization after a break up with my FP, but I've identified with BPD since I was a preteen (I just didn't know it ). After another horrible fight that I caused with my loving and supportive fiance a few months ago, I realized that I WAS THE PROBLEM and I needed to change. Just like you mentioned in the podcast, that moment of realizing you are the problem without shame and self hatred, but more of AH - HA, I realized I needed to change. Your podcast was the first one I listened to when I searched "BPD splitting" in Spotify and I have been hooked. I listen in the morning while I'm making breakfast, on my walks, in my car, even with my partner! I've learned so much about my self through your experiences and it made me feel understood. I didn't even understand what I was feeling but you are so well-spoken and helped me understand that I AM NOT MY BPD. My therapist noticed my sudden commitment to change and self understanding, and when she asked what happened that gave me the sense of clarity I told her that your podcasts have been helping me tremendously! She loved the idea that I was listening to a podcast centered around recovery and said she would suggest podcasts to her other clients. You've made me uncover feelings I never knew I had, help me see that I am not alone, and that we can recover. I am optimistic about my recovery because you've shown me that I am not a lost cause and I can get better. Thank you truly from the bottom of my heart.